Idk why I didn’t know this but having a British passport is like a huge advantage, I can literally travel or move to anywhere in Europe. I didn’t realise that for some of my friends that they don’t have that option, they have to be accepted into Britain depending if they have family or are in need of them based on there job. I don’t know what id do if I new I was stuck here in Australia for the rest of my life. For so long I’ve hated that I was not born here and that I’m not a proper australian and now I’m so fucking thankful for having the opportunities other people won’t ever have because I was born in the UK

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a part of me wants to stop eating so my body can eat away into being super small but i also have learnt to appreciate my curves and my body again but ergh sometimes id rather be so skinny so i can hide away in that and for people to recognize me for being small, idk just sometimes id rather not be womenly because i dont even feel like anyone even notices me anyway  

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im not going to be a push over anymore, im not going to let you say one thing and then treat me life shit, i might have known you for a long time but your changing so much and i dont need friendships in my life that are become so bitter because most of the time you couldnt care less about me or my life your too self involved all the time now 

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Although the job I’ve got will suck and I’m working with food I’m so excited that I’ll have money and that I’ll be saving up to move to the UK. I’m happy I have a goal and an idea of what I’m doing with my life. Its only 6 months and then I can start fresh 😁😄

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sterility:

i wasn’t in a good place2014

i big part of me wishes that i hadnt of gotten this job so that i could have been leaving to england in the next month but now ill have to wait till the end of the year 

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19950522:

Got completely ditched by everyone for my birthday plans so I literally won’t be going out or doing anything for it because only one friend is coming. Fuck friends tbh

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I think the older I’m getting the more I realize I have nothing in common with my friends, if I was to get this job and stay in Brisbane the money would be of no use, I wouldn’t have anyone to go out with or talk too because I’m just not close to any of them anymore. Its not anyone’s fault its just life is kinda pulling us all in different directions and there not there for me but they don’t even need me anymore either. Idk what I’ll do but maybe moving will be a good idea, I can have a chance at meeting new people, and get away from this constant feeling of loneliness.

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